Feeling hopeless with no end in sight, from my own outlook

[Zann1966]

I was referred here by a helpline and I need support for my personal problem. Who will reach out to give me some advice

[beaumontony]

Perhaps I can help if your problem deals with anxiety and depression. I have been dealing with these 2 health issues for 12 years now. If I can't help I am sure someone else on the site might be able. What is the problem?

[Zann1966 in reply to beaumontony]

I have been dealing with depression for many years, still haven't found out how to deal with it. I go on meds then off them all the time,same with my diabetes meds. What is getting me now is I recently trusted someone that I met online who said that he would send money. Yeah, I was told by my sister never give out personal information to anyone. Now I that the dude screwed up my account, I face having to tell my sister all of it. I feel like I can't. I was diagnosed with autism (high functioning). I feel alone, useless and think the worst case can happen. I don't have any friends to help me through this because making friends is hard for me. There's more to this story but I can go into more detail later. I just feel like crap and don't know how to change the feeling or where to go to find out how I can change these fears of my life being over.

[Kakes808]

I know it's hard. I know giving up feels like the right answer. The easy answer. But it's not!! You are worth so much more than you think. People care and are here for you. And most of all god is as well ❤️ he chooses the most broken to bless 😊 the feelings inside you that bring you down are only temporary. It's doesn't define you nor should it consume you. Let those thoughts pass by. Don't let them get to you. You are strong. You are amazing and you are loved! Never forget that!. I'm always here if you need a helping hand or just someone to listen. I'm here 💕

[Windy101]

You are definitely not alone! I'm so glad you found this forum. One thing I suggest is to stop going on and off your meds. That will only make whatever problems are happening worse as it's hard to stay stable when your body is always adjusting. Take deep breaths. We all make mistakes. If you trusted the wrong person, then you can learn from that. Let your sister know that you need her love and support, not for her to judge you and get angry. Ask if she will calmly talk with you so together the two of you can figure out a solution to what the current problem is. There is no reason she has to make things worse than they already area. You are NOT worthless at all! You made a mistake, but that's because you are a good person who can't imagine people doing something like what happened. You have as much right to be on this earth as anyone else, and you are just as good as anyone else. Take good care of yourself and let us know what happens. People care.

[beaumontony]

Dear Zann1966, I am sorry I could not get back with you sooner after your reply. I was dealing with my own depression and anxiety concerning my SS Disability court hearing coming up in December after speaking with a case manager at the agency representing me on this matter. However, I see others replied as I knew they would with good insight and suggestions. I have made the mistake two times of thinking I could come off my medications. Once with a primary doctor and then once on my own but I learned after both these times that indeed I need medications and therapy to handle my anxiety and depression.. Just like your medical need for diabetes medication so it is for your need for medication to support better mental health. I know there are a lot of stereotypes around taking medications especially in this age of health consciousness but realize you are taking these medications to be healthy. They are biologically necessary and thus just as essential as any other biological need. If you can find a good therapist who you can have and build a good therapeutic relationship with that will perhaps be an answer to the person you long for to confide in since you have difficulties with your sister. Indeed it can be difficult to share with others what you're experiencing if they have no concept of what you're suffering either first hand or through the knowledge of their profession. Hopefully you can find a good therapist who can help you with your problems solving skills regards to your concerns since you indeed appear to be high functioning person from what you wrote and shared in your reply.