Feeling crazy at the moment

[acsmith8213]

I'm having a 'not so good' time right now. I didn't want to get out of bed this morning, really want to just go home and hibernate. I saw my therapist yesterday who said she thinks I need a "psych eval" for medication management. This whole thing just made me want to ugly cry. I hate having to live with this!!! I've never in my whole life felt this out of control.

[Erica-Leah]

I think you feel worried about medications. Maybe medications might help. but maybe u can decide not to take them on a regular basis. just until you feel ok? I'm sorry, Im not much help. I have a friend who feels the same way you do, but ur much better because u saw a therapist. He does not.

Maybe, this is just temporary. Hugs to you.

[acsmith8213 in reply to Erica-Leah]

Thank you Eric-Leah. You are on track about medications. I do not want to take them; however, this is not completely in my power at the moment. I tried not taking them for the past month or so. This is where it's gotten me. I couldn't get out of bed or the house for two and a half days and my doc prescribed Xanax. I'm not sleeping well (used to sleep like a rock) either. I'm hoping you're right about it being temporary. I've always been told to "suck it up and do what you need to do". I'm tired and feeling like I'm giving out by doing that. I don't deal with stress as well as I used to. Sucks.

[Erica-Leah in reply to acsmith8213]

sometimes, maybe, we need to do things we feel we don't. but here's hoping all these will give you better health. "Suck it up" seems logical but as humans, sometimes we need to let go. it helps. Hugs to you!

[yeja]

hey Amy I know that feeling well I just forced myself to get up out of bed because I know that that is a dangerous safe spot for me when I'm not feeling great anyway I recently did see a new Doctor Who changed my medication regimen after 20 years because medication does stop working I have mood disorder and depression and it returned after many years of being OK I have a wonderful therapist who I see weekly this is not the life I wanted I did not want to deal with this disease but the more you fight it it just stays there I'm in my 60s and I need to be healthy for my family so don't be afraid of the doctor don't be afraid of the medication .

[acsmith8213 in reply to yeja]

Thank you. I have spent so much time fighting this on my own. I too struggle to get out of bed recently and some days are worse than others. I have to keep going but being out makes me tired and crabby. I'm on Wellbutrin right now but am still irritable and feel panic coming sometimes. I have to redirect myself when that happens.

[chrisg43]

i too felt the way you do. i so did not want to take medicine. i tried to fight anxiety, panic, depression, and agoraphobia with talk therapy. i just got worse and worse. then one day my mom came to my house. she told me she was coming but when i opened the front door and saw her i freaked out. i forgot for a moment she was coming. started to get anxious. then intrusove thoughts flooded my mind. i crawled back into bed. thats when i saw my mom cleaning my house. i felt worse. my house was aweful mess. my 2yr old was there and i realized id not read a book or played with her in i didn't know how long. i couldnt breath heart racing. i looked down and couldnt remember when id changed my clothes last or took a shower. embarassment fear anxiety all these overwhelming emotions set in. i couldnt handle it. i asked my mom to take me to the local hospital where i checked myself in to be evaluated. i couldnt take care of my 2yr old or keep my house clean. i was not taking care of my self. so i wasnt leaving til i. could function and take care of my kids and self. they prescribed me zoloft while there with a tiny dose of klonopin to take while took effect. within 2 days i felt 75% better. i eventually stopped taking klonopin and now take just zoloft. if it wasnt for zoloft id probably would be divorced and my kids wouldve been taken away. i had no side effects from it. i highly recomend it. you dont have to take it forever either. you can wean off it.

[acsmith8213 in reply to chrisg43]

Thank you for that. I've made an appointment to see a psychiatrist so I'm hoping to get something. I'm sucking it up right now and taking Wellbutrin xl I can function. Anxiety is still around but I have Xanax but don't want to take it because it's so addictive.

[Justswimming]

Take some long slow deep.breathes...we all hate anxiety and depression hang in there...nothing wrong with psych eval.just let's Dr know if your meds are rt just some questions you're going to have to accept that depression is something you are going to have to manage like some with asthma manages that..reduce your triggers..take your meds. Get exercise go outside in mourning and get some sunlit hope you feel.better soon routing for you😊