A month into my anxiety journey

[Traversijess]

It is almost 1 in the morning as I write this. I am thankful to have found this website and this group. I was just googling some weird symptoms I was having which ended up just being due to my anxiety. (I.e. Anxiety tremors, feeling nauseous, and a weird feeling when I am about to fall asleep. Don't know what that is yet) I AM TIRED. Not just physically as I write this with heavy eyes. But mentally. I am tired of this forever fear. I am tired of the lump in my throat. I am tired of this pit in my stomach and these irrational thoughts. I'm tired. But I will keep moving forward and working on me and my mental and physical health. I will not give up and let this run my life. Or at least that's what I'll tell myself for now.

[Super-]

You're not alone here. It's terrible to be so tired but unable to sleep. It's like gods unsolvable riddle. And then you become more anxious because you can't sleep. It's torturous.

Suffering these symptoms long term is hard to deal with. I've had them for years and it sucks. Tired is my new norm 😔

I love your attitude to press forward and work on yourself. I failed to adequately address my depression and anxiety and they became a part of me. Working hard now to reverse that.

Keep up the good work. I'm rooting for you.

[Traversijess in reply to Super-]

It sucks that other people feel this way too. But it brings me comfort to know I'm not alone

[Hidden]

Keep telling yourself that and always believe in yourself. Get busy with life, don't sit around and allow life to pass you by. Fill you head with things that interest you and make you think. If your brain is busy thinking about interesting things then it won't have time for negatives.

Good luck to you.

[Traversijess in reply to Hidden]

Thanks!

[Adelaydachic]

Cognitive therapy for sure. If it helps you any (it helped me a ton), there's a very long list of anxiety symptoms on anxietyforum.net. I felt as if I was dying with every anxiety attack because of the symptoms. Then when I overlooked those symptoms because I knew it was anxiety, my symptoms would change and freak me out all over again lol back to the list to help ease my mind! Writing like you did when you can't sleep is very good. It gets it out of your head and in another place. Keep your head up. You're on the right path.

[clmgoal135]

No sleep and difficulty sleeping does make it all so much harder. I hsve tried a lot of things and keeping physically active for me is key; getting up when I cannot sleep and force myself to read something light and interesting. Trying to stop the racing and negative thoughts is key. I diffuse essential oils and try to calm mind down by staying focused on the present. I have missed years of happiness With crippling anxiety. Getting sleep is so good for our minds and body. Try for a few good nights and know that from time to time it will be back; but don't give up! Wishing you the best!

[Traversijess in reply to clmgoal135]

I'll have to look into exercising before bed, and reading. Things I have not tried. I've been very fearful of everything lately to be honest. And that is setting me back from even trying to help myself. I have lavender oil but no diffuser. So I'll look for something for that too. Because that's helped me when I remember my bottle. Thanks for all the tips! I appreciate it

[Cowgirlcat84]

I, too, often feel weird just as I am falling asleep. Have, for years. I recently googled the sensation and found this: google.com/search?q=hypnago...

It always comforts me to know that I am not the only person experiencing something seemingly weird and/or scary. I grew up in a home in the Forties and Fifties that cyclically became a terrifying place to be. My mother suffered from bi-polar/psychotic episodes. Her family doctor had no idea how to deal with that. He prescribed sleeping pills. Every few years she used the pills to attempt suicide - to no avail. I found her near death when I was fourteen and raced to get help.

I now know much more about her powerlessness over her illness - and my father's powerlessness over the whole situation. I understand, too, that I carry her genes. I've had decades of therapy and years of Recovery, but now and then, especially in late winter and early spring, the anxiety surfaces. Medication is problematic for me. So, I don't use it.

It is a comfort to have found this community. Thank you all for having the courage to be open.