So I was diagnosed with depression when I was 19 - after I had a miscarriage and my bf left me because of it and then I lost my job.
I've had my ups and downs every since. No medication. Last year when I was 6months pregnant I had an argument with my brother which caused me to have a panic attack and ever since I am down a lot of the time.
I want to be the best mum I can be but feel even worse when I have a massive panic attack and my son is there. I put him in his cot and sit where he can't see me.
My triggers tend to be my brothers. A few months ago one had a go that I was a fat lazy C! Which set me off.
Yesterday another one of my brothers had a go which set me off then tonight he had another go.
I've never had the greatest relationship with my older brother but do anything and everything for his kids. Yet he has a go at me for living with my parents and my baby.
I don't know why my brothers get to me so much but they do and when I've spoken to them or mum they don't see depression as real.
Just at a loss. I've been to behaviour therapy and nothing has changed.