It's my fault.

[youneverwalkalone]

Is it my fault for needing a break from everything? I feel so guilty for asking him to wait for me cause I know that I'll need not one or two days to come back. He caused me so much pain, I forced myself to forget everything mean that he said and I'm trying to forgive him also me being paranoid is not helping especially when I'm feeling really depressed.

[Hidden]

Hi I am not sure what to say coz I don't know the background to this, can you clarify please? Is this your bf/partner you are talking about?

At the end of the day if you need a break from things then you need a break. Why are you feeling so bad about it? Why do you have to forgive the mean things he has said to you? Or the pain he has caused you? Not sure I would nor want to. I would be out of there like a shot. I am not surprised you feel paranoid and depressed if this man has been treating you like that!

You don't owe anyone your life you know and your main duty is to yourself. I don't expect he is worrying about your feelings!

I might be way off beam here but it's the best I can do with such limited information. x

[youneverwalkalone in reply to Hidden]

He's my bestfriend and I can't just shut him out to my life, we have this deep relationship but sometimes it gets too much to the point where I can't even say my own opinion without him being mad. It's just that I trust him too much and I think he didn't mean to hurt me nor get angry at me, I guess I'm just emotional.