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[Mgs91]

Well I'm not exactly sure what to say or where to start... I have manic depression severe anxiety and ocd.. I was diagnosed at 15 when my mother decided she didn't want to deal with me and had me committed.. and we'll 11 years later I'm steal battling my demon's and wishing that I never was put on this earth. I have no one in my corner that I can vent to so it gets harder and harder to deal with my life. I've thought of suicide but I have 2 beautiful little girls and can't be selfish and take my life and myself away from them.. the past 2 months have been by far the worst days of my life, my husband just makes it worst cause he doesn't understand so it but me under even more anxiety. I'm just so unsure about everything.. I'm lost.. im afraid..

[kellirene520]

We have all felt lost and alone. I'm so sorry you have to suffer through this daily struggle. Sometimes it can be hard to find the good in the day around you. Happiness always starts with yourself. Focus on what makes you happy. If that's spending time with your girls then make the best of it. If your husband is not supportive of your issues then I'll be honest, he's probably not the right person for you to be sharing your life with. And you know what? That's okay! There's a person out there who will love support and understand what you're feeling. I was lucky enough to find him myself. Try writing down one good thing that happened to you everyday. It's something I've found to be helpful!

[poodlelover81]

Mgs91,

I'm so sorry to hear of this. I had major depressive disorder and severe ocd in college. Luckily, my mom was supportive. I'm sorry your husband doesn't support you and you know no one to vent to. Feel free to message me.