First Time

[penlew]

This is my first time on here and am looking for support to help cope with everything. Does anyone have any ideas that I could try?

[gogogirl]

Do you want to add more details? Is it life in general?

[penlew in reply to gogogirl]

I added more details for you to be able to help. Im so sorry that I didn't get more specific, my mind doesn't seem to be processing or thinking. Thank you for your response. A lot of it is life in general.

[ElJared91]

I have to agree with gogogirl... anything in specific?? Although, maybe a big part of your need to cope is in determining what you need to cope about!! Let us know and hopefully we can help!!

[Hidden in reply to ElJared91]

Oh, just become Popeye or Superwoman. Seriously, describing what "everything" is in your world can help us to reach out and help you get a foothold in all that's happening with you.

[penlew in reply to Hidden]

LOL don't I wish that I could become Super Woman or Popeye. I did exactly as you recommended and did describe everything. thank you so much for your response and I look forward to y'all being able to help me.

[penlew in reply to ElJared91]

Thank you for your response, I did write a response back with more specifics, hopefully you can help me.

[penlew]

Thank you for the response. I realize everything is a very broad statement. I have been dealing with suicidal ideations and have been on suicide watch for some time. I lost my dad in February of this year, broke up with my fiancé of 2 years, tried to kill myself and lost my job. I am just having a hard time dealing with life all the way around. I was diagnosed with many things one of which is major depressive disorder severe with psychotic symptoms. I don't socialize at all, I have panic attacks pretty bad and I do hear voices. I have tried coloring, crafts, writing but nothing I seem to do seems to be working so am at a loss of what to do or try.

[gogogirl in reply to penlew]

Wow, I am very sorry. Who wouldn't have problems with that? My big thing is guilt, and I am an older person. It sometimes stops me from living in the present. I too have experienced job loss. I agree with the person who mentioned your doctor. Also, who is in your support circle like other family, friends etc? Sorry about the loss of your dad- losing parents is devastating. I am here. Despite all that- look at this- you've managed to come to this site. You are strong for taking this small step.

[gogogirl in reply to gogogirl]

I know you experienced other losses as well. Would you like to chat with gogogirl? That's me.

[penlew in reply to gogogirl]

Absolutely, I would love that!

[penlew in reply to gogogirl]

Thank you. I can totally understand about the guilt, I deal with that a lot these days. I just have my mom and this group now in my support group. I appreciate your kindness. You are absolutely right, I did manage to come to this site and Im so glad that I did. Im so sorry to hear all that you are going through as well and Im here if you need me or want to talk.

[gogogirl in reply to penlew]

I am glad you have your mom. Having close family to help each other cope with life is so important. Would you like to share about what you like to do like hobbies, outdoor activities, etc? Also, how about something good about who you are at your core if you'd like?

[penlew in reply to gogogirl]

I feel pretty blessed to have my mom. Yes having close family to help each other cope with life is so important. I have also realized that it's just as important to have people in your support group that know and understand where you are at. Who do you have in your support group. I am learning who I am but so far, hobbies are photography, coloring, playing with my dogs. Outdoor activities can be a wide range for me, but I love to be outdoors when the weather permits. What about you? What do you like to do? Let's see something good about who I am at my core is im giving and a good listener. What about you? I look forward to hearing from you!

[ElJared91]

Wow, that is a lot to have to deal with in such a short amount of time I'm really sorry to hear that you went through all of that... Can I ask when the last time was that you spoke with your doctor, or with a mental health specialist?? They would be the best to give you any advice on what you should do immediately to get yourself to a better place than you are now. Are you taking any medication for the depression?

[penlew in reply to ElJared91]

Thank you. I only see the doctor every 2 months to manage my meds, I see the nurse every month for everything else, mental health specialist - twice a week. They are trying to get me to a better place, but thus far, nothing has really worked. Thank you for the advice though, I greatly appreciate it. Yes I am taking medication for the depression and psychotic symptoms.

[gogogirl in reply to penlew]

Are you able to talk with the mental health specialist about why you feel guilty? Again, I am very sorry for your losses. Are you in the US?

[penlew in reply to gogogirl]

Yes I am able to talk to the mental health specialist about why I feel guilty, its dealing with the issues that seems to hinder me. How about you? Thank you so much. Yes I am in Texas, how about you?

[Maggiekay]

I do not have any ideas but i do understand what u r talking about. I am struggling to cope with each breath i take. I put on a fake smile for a little while but that didnt help.

[penlew in reply to Maggiekay]

You don't have to any ideas, but being honest, it helps to know that im not the only one going through this. I totally understand about faking it but that doesn't help and it takes so much out of you. Im here if you want to talk or just need a friend.

[ferris2424]

I am where you are. I just found this group today and have been heartened by the kindness and advice. All I can add is that I am starting a 3-4 week outpatient program and I know I am relieved to start the path of getting better. It takes putting "real life" on hold, and that is why it took me so long to address.