I'm so tired.

[NinaBug]

I've been medicated for depression since the fourth grade and bipolar since junior year. I'm almost 22 now and it hasn't gotten better. I've gone through medicine after medicine, side affect after side affect, self harm, suicide attempts, therapy.. I'm lost. The past several months have been the worst of my life, and seemingly for no reason at all. My anxiety attacks are so intense I can't function. My depression is so severe that I'm constantly sick and exhausted and life just doesn't seem worth living anymore. I'm so tired of hanging on. I'm so tired of fighting. The battle seems like it can't be won and I'm screaming at the top of my lungs for help and everyone is telling me to shut up. It's just in your head. You're just not trying hard enough. I'm tired. I just want to sleep. 6 feet under seems like a comfy place to rest. I need the will to hold on and fight but there's nothing for me to grab at. Please, someone, anyone, give me something.

[Palmer2475]

This is so sad to read, I wish I could help but I know I can't however don't let anyone tell you your not trying enough , you are strong and brave for getting through everyday and you can get through more so hold on, regardless of the bad we go through we're still blessed to be here still and don't beat yourself up about not doing as great as everybody else , take every good moment or even ok moment to be more positive even a small positive thought even, find things to distract yourself even small little hobbies , keep the thoughts away. You can do this. We all can and that's why we're all on here to have support from others to get through the days.