For all the ppl on my last post ab this that said I should be proud of myself for not wanting to cut , thank you for telling me . I rly didn't look at that as something to be proud of . I'm still kind of getting those urges . My mom & I are still having issues , I'm breaking the bond between my mom, sister , & I by telling all of my mom's secrets that bother me . My mother has failed to be honest w me ab so many things so when I find out , I tell my sister to ask what I should do ab it . Now my mom doesn't trust me anymore , and she doesn't understand the fact that being a slut while she's around her boyfriend is going to help me at all . I can't get through her thick skull . I still want to hurt myself . There's some sort of beauty I see in cutting . Even though I've never done it , I kinda want to . Not 100% , but it's still there . My mom is already talking ab me getting off my Prozac soon & im scared .... I don't want to . I'm afraid of my depression coming bk . I'm afraid of feeling extremely suicidal again . I'm so worried ...
Cutting #2: For all the ppl on my last... - Anxiety and Depre...
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I found that getting off anti depressants took my urge to commit suicide away. I thought about it more clearly and now I am very afraid of dying. I would maybe try doing the same with cutting. Make yourself afraid of it. You have never done it for a reason. That shit is going to hurt. It could kill you. It won't only hurt you but others around you will be effected by seeing that. You thinking about it before doing it is great and I hope you see that there so many other ways to ask for help.
Please don't take anything I said literally or harshly. Just my input on things and I really hope you never end up trying it. Praying for you
Hi sorry you are still having a bad time of it. First of all as long as you are 16 or over your wishes will take precedence if you need to remain on your meds. I presume you are 16 or over?
There is no 'beauty' in cutting. It is painful and will leave scars that will be with you forever. How would it feel like to have to cover up in the sun for the rest of your life? How would it be when you have an intimate relationship? This will only make things worse.
I am not sure if you are having any counselling at the moment. If so tell your counsellor, if not then make an urgent appointment with your doctor and tell them. Do not start cutting as this can then become a habit and you have got enough problems as it is. Why add more?
I'd just like to say that as someone that has struggled with self harm and If I'm honest I still do, indulging on your feelings and cutting does make it worse. It makes those feelings consume you, and more than that it becomes an addiction. I have scars, and it's hugely inconvenient. Family holidays are a NIGHTMARE. Please don't plunge into something that is almost impossible to break away from, I speak from experience.