Hello. Lost I saw your post. I am new here.
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I'm new too... lost is the best way to describe me. It's nice to meet you.
Kindlet1 it is nice to meet you as well.
Hello, I am new here today as well. Would just like to say hello to everyone.
I'm sorry, I just got back. I'm not good... so much noise in my head
Sometimes it's hard to make sense... but good news is I start my PTSD and anxiety therapy in a couple of weeks
It's been a rough week
Sorry to hear. Yes, I'm not sure exactly why I have been struggling with this for years. I tend to hold a lot of things to myself.
I have held it to myself because I feel I'm the blame. I think I may be wrong in that, I'm going to therapy in a couple of weeks to drag out the monsters... I'm scared but I can't keep going like this
Yea I believe we all experience wanting to make sense of it all. But it sounds like you are struggling with some hard times. I do as well except I have a lot of physical issues that keep me struggling through my thought process. Would you care to share with me what it is that you are going through?
Hi Kindlet. No need to apologize. What kind of noises are you hearing sweetie?
I know my noises that I hear sometimes really depres me
I have suffered anxiety since I was a little girl. Sleep walking into dangerous situations, etc... I have been abandoned with a baby, where my parents deserted me for bringing shame, I have been in neglectful and emotionally abusive relationships. I did my best by my 3 kids through it all, while hearing how I get what I deserve for poor choices. And finally my daughter and i found her father dead. I feel I'm to blame because I divorced him and wasn't there to save him. I don't actually hear voices, just my jumbled thoughts and a lifetime of guilt... I hear people will leave me or I messed up again...
I have panic attacks, only I start breathing heavy and run, walk out, blank out and say things I hate. Nightmares. Love those. I got the ones that made me run from my bed into my kids rooms or corners shaking under control, but they were replaced with sleep heart attacks. I'm 50, and it took me this long to finally go to a doctor, smart huh? My anxiety is a disorder because I waited so long, and I have had PTSD for years. There are lot of noises...
Get rid of the guilt. People make mistakes. Don't mean you suffer the rest of your life. God gave you those kids. They are a gift from God no matter what people say. He forgives you your mistakes if you ask him. Let him heal that and look at your children as a blessing. They are not punishment. God knew you would need that child even though your parents turned you a way. He chose you to be the mother. He wants to turn mistakes into something beautiful. Let him carry you the rest of the way. He has great plans for you. Write your story in a journal for your children. It will help you to get your feelings out on paper. Write to God. I use to do that. It helped me for years after 22 years of abuse. I stopped and I think that's why I'm in the shape I'm in now. I think I will start back. Thanks for reminding me. See how your already helping me. We have to talk about these things and get them out. Get them off our chest. It will help
Hello kinlet1. It's a little late but just sitting here listening some firework. I am so sorry life has dealt you some heavy blows. Sounds like you have had a lot of drama in your life. I do my best to try an not get into a lot of drama. My biggest prolems are my health. It started when I was 27 years old. I'm 56 now. I contracted a condition called crones. Since then I have had 4 different major surgeries. I only have 20% of my small bowel left which makes life a little difficult. Then about 5 years ago I contracted an disease called peripheral neuropathy. It keeps me chasing pain 24/7. But I belong to a group of guys who have had some bumpy roads. Anyway kindlet1 time for me to go. It was good chatting with you, and I hope you sleep well. And have a good day tomorrow.
Hi kindlet
Sounds like you have a good start on things. At least your moving in the right direction and just getting the help from a OSI clinic for PTSD will help. Or if it's not a OSI clinic you may want to check one out because they are amazing for dealing with PTSD. I have had my fair share of dealngs with others that suffer from PTSD and have never been diagnosed but I often wonder if I suffer from it.
Welcome to our group its actually a good place to just talk things out with others that understand what your going through. And trust me anything bad that has happened isn't your fault life sometimes deals us a bad hand.
Lostgirl
Take your time and deal with the most important matter first, don't be in a rush.
Welcome! You can talk to me at anytime. I have a lot issues probably like you. You aren't alone.