Came to this forum because I feel that speaking to someone will help ease my fear of checking my school email. However, there are no friends or family who is not a professional who I would feel completely comfortable sharing my struggles with.
I am in undergrad and was diagnosed with ADHD before my third trimester. At the beginning of the school year, I could tell something was off because I know myself well enough, but I refused to acknowledge how serious it was and that is was affecting my work ethic. Things quickly went downhill, and once I could finally admit something wasn't okay, I was diagnosed with ADHD. The diagnosis was a relief but also difficult to embrace, and moving forward from there was also difficult in a different manner.
I have since started my treatment, which has helped me improve greatly and changed my life, but I still struggle. It is difficult for me to check my email and without my medication, to leave my dorm room. I've missed deadlines for school and study abroad by weeks turning to months. There is a possibly that my grades have fallen again and that I have been removed from the study abroad program. The tasks themselves are simple, but my time management and missing deadlines overwhelms me. It would be so simple to just get things done or check my email and know for sure, but the fear of the outcome keeps me putting it off. Having someone to support me really helps reduce that overwhelming feeling. Thank you for your help and for reading.