So Here it goes. First time posting.

[Mommy_0f_2]

Hey guys! just to give you a background I started treatment back in July 2016 for anxiety. My pcp did as much as she can before referring me out to a psychiatrist which began in November and diagnosed me with dysthymia. We went through several different regimens of medication before finding one that is currently working. On three different medications. Two in the morning and one at night. I am currently married to a wonderful women but we struggle and argue a lot because of my of mental illness. She is trying to find a support group for spouses that deal with Mental illness. I struggle my self esteem is low. I don't like to go out and make new friends but I should. I am introvert. I am socially awkward. but when you get to know me I am down right fun. I always think the worse of every situation that can happen. I always think people are talking about me.

Everything that I go through today, stems from my childhood. yea I know it sucks. I blame my mom for not getting me help when I was younger. But cant really hold her accountable for 10 years I did not seek help, I just buried and dealt with it.

I will get into more details later on. I just wanted to say hi since I finally muttered up the courage to post!