Recently I've been struggling with low self-esteem and what not. It really hit me hard, and I was disspointed that I got to a point that low. I was practicing with self-help for a while, and things got better. But so many years of repressing emotions created this pool of suffering that I became neck deep in. Only lately have I realized the extent of my crippling social anxiety throughout my life. An important thing that I became aware of was the fact that my social anxiety is a direct reflection of how I see myself. When I really look deep within myself, I am my own worst enemy. I criticize every little thing I do, and sometimes I hardly see the point of going on like this. But I know now that the only thing I need is compassion for myself, especially my anxiety. I've spent so much time worrying about getting anxious, that it just got worse. I need to spread love to all of me, only then can things become better.