Ok so my email says introduce yourself. Hi, I am a 30 something mother of 2, married, about to graduate from college with 4.0 and high honors, married, with a nice house and just about everything I wanted in life. I was diagnosed with depression in my teens, have many suicide attempts in my history, but I like to think that is my past. When I got married my husband wondered why I needed to take antidepressants anymore, wasn't I happy with my life? Good point, I guess. And when I got pregnant i came off meds and decided that I really had no reason to be depressed anymore. But my kids are growing, I still have no friends, I still can't get myself to leave the house for very long. I have tried to make my life everything I hoped and imagined would make me happy, but I still struggle.
I'm here because the term high functioning depression keeps popping up in my news feeds and I know that's me. I'm here because while I consider reaching out to a doctor or therapist about my struggles, I worry about the stigma behind it and worry about it wrecking my career path. So I do nothing, and I'm pretty good at it. I can go long periods feeling ok, and I can sink pretty low, but I know the lows will pass if I just keep putting one foot in front of the other, one day at a time. But it is lonely trying to remain upbeat and not let anyone know im struggling. So after reading yet another article in high functioning depression I followed the link to this site.
So I may be to afraid to admit that I am struggling, to say it aloud, to take a step toward seeking any professional help because it maybe career suicide, but I think being able to say it I'm writing and read other stories that remind me I'm not alone, and just to somehow be connected yet anonymous could be a half measure to help! So, here I am, thanks for letting me join and feel a little less alone.