I haven't posted in months but I read posts a lot. I'm still around. Still struggling with anxiety. It's been more depression than anxiety lately. I think the last time I posted it was about church giving me anxiety. I've stopped going. It just wasn't worth it any more. I'm glad I finally got the courage to do it.
Anyway back to the point of my post. Back in November I spilled boiling water on my foot and ended up with a couple pretty nasty 2nd degree burns. I was terrified it would get infected. The whole situation just terrified me for some reason. We are talking me sitting on the toilet before the first bandage change having a panic attack. But I battled through it and the burns healed without issue. I hoped as time when on I'd think about it less. But that hasn't happened.
I love to cook and now any time I cook have these crazy thoughts. It's like I'm seeing a flash back but it's things that have never happened. For example, the other day I was pulling something out of the oven and all of sudden saw a vision in my head of me dropping the pan on my feet. It's so annoying and scary. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about this because they'd think I was completely out of my mind or something.
I don't really know what my point in writing this is. I guess I just wanted to tell someone that this is going on.