I spent the past few weeks trying to make friends on Craigslist. Everyone stopped emailing or texting me after a couple of weeks. Am I such a freak I will never have friends or be wanted? I am 51 years old and I seem to suck the life out of everyone. I don't know who I am or who I want to be. I weigh over 300 lbs, I am not attractive and I am terrified I will never know love or intimacy.