I'm a college sophomore, 19, and struggling a lot. Although I haven't been formally diagnosed, some days I feel like high-functioning depression is the only way to describe myself. I was diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 5. I have been doing reasonably well without medication since quitting it at 10, but ever since I started college things have steadily escalated. I have had days when all I wanted to do was go to sleep and not wake up, and staying in class is often an exercise in sheer willpower, even though I love school and learning.
Although I am not suicidal, I have struggled with self-harm of many varieties. For the last month especially, I have been fighting the urge to self-harm almost daily, but no matter how I try to distract myself or stay productive, the urges keep persisting. I don't want to hurt myself, but I don't know how to stop the thoughts. Does anyone have any advice?