Hi, I am new to this site and to blogging in general.
I have been dealing with anxiety for a number of years now, but always downplayed it. My anxiety has always been my or my families health - and fear of dying (my mum passed away at 54 suddenly 11 years ago). Things have gotten worse in the last few months - to the point where I ended up in the ER twice due to (what I suspect were) panic attacks.
Since then I have had chest pain and have been going to the doctors almost constantly - to the point where I now feel they are fobbing me off. I made them give me a treadmill test yesterday - and when they called last night and said treadmill test was fine, but cant rule out a blockage - I freaked out.... I guess I wanted to hear that I was ok and it was all in my head - and instead they said well a blockage cannot be ruled out - so I now think that I'm about to have a heart attack.
I don't know what to do to move forward and get better... my husband tells me to keep calm - yeah like that is easy....
Sorry for unloading - but I feel totally on an island. I'm hoping that this group can help bring some perspective and ways to cope.