I'm new here and I don't even really know what to type... I've had anxiety for about 3 or 4 years now and I've always thought about getting meds but I'm unsure if that would help or make it worse.. I'm embarrassed to talk about it.. The thought makes my body get chills.. But I've heard that meds help. I thought I could handle things myself but I'm back to crying everyday and I don't want to get back in my old habits of self harming, I don't understand why I have to feel like way, I feel like I'm crazy and somethings wrong with me. Everyone sees me as the happy girl but in my mind I'm not. I can't stop holding grudges, my attitude is spiraling downwards, I'm researching things to help but it doesn't feel like anything is. I just need some advice from someone who's been through it.