Tired

[shawnanthony]

I'm a mess. I'm just holding on. Been dealing with this for decades.

[mjlitl13]

Hi Shawn,

Exactly what have you been dealing with? Anxiety? Depression? Both?

Have you gone to a Dr for what's bothering you?

A lot of us here have felt like we were a mess, in the past and even as we travel down this very difficult road of recovery.

Just this past month, I was feeling like a mess, even after I have gotten help and was doing better and then I ended up sliding down into depression again.

Just remember, progress is not a straight line from bottom to top, It's more of a bumpy road, with ups and downs throughout. But, don't give up, even though you feel like it at times.

During the worst times, just start taking "baby steps" toward feeling better.

Keep coming back here. There will always be someone who understands.

Hugs,

MJ

[Beevee]

Hi

Mjlitl13 is right. The road to recovery isn't linear and very much an up and down affair. Interestingly, although your post is short, your comment that you are just holding on may very well be the reason why you have suffered for decades.

What are you holding on to? The anxiety? Instead of holding on, have you tried letting go, doing nothing and giving up the struggle by accepting things as they stand? Have you ever thought that that the anxious thoughts and feelings you experience want to leave you but you aren't letting them go because you spend all your time trying to figure it all out which just makes it stick around?

It is your attempts to hold on that are likely to be keeping you stuck in the anxiety cycle. Keeping a grip on things takes up a lot of energy and likely to make you feel depressed or depleted, to quote Dr Claire Weekes who pioneered Self Help to the cure of all fear based disorders. Her teachings show the way to loosen your grip on anxiety by facing and accepting the symptoms of anxiety and then letting time pass. By accepting, you give your mind and nerves the chance to recover and in time, the old you will rise to the surface as the symptoms melt away.

[BonnieSue]

I was a mess many years ago. Just barely holding on until I couldn't hold on anymore. Crash. I got to the psychiatrist and told him what a mess I was. Me and my wet hair because I had cleaned up just to go and see him. For many days before seeing the Dr. I had walked around shaking and being a bundle of nerves. My mom had driven me because I was too shaky to drive. I had 3 kids at home. He put me on Xanax but it didn't help right away. Eventually it helped a little and then more and more. After a few weeks my depression became evident and I was put on Prozac. After a few weeks of Prozac I was improving. So in a few months I became a human being again. Finally I returned to life and became me again! It was a long, slow miserable crawl but I made it with the help of family, a friend and a good doctor!!

Can you relate to any of this? I was a mess! I couldn't hold on any more. I broke. I had to be put back together again. But it worked!! I've been in good shape, excellent shape for most of 29 years! I take my meds and see my counselor. That is a highly recommended combo. You sound like you need to make 2 appointments pronto. Unless you've already done so. If you already are on meds, they need some tweaking so you feel a whole lot better. Don't ever settle for feeling bad. Speak up and tell the Dr. what isn't right. He/she can't adjust your meds if they don't know something's wrong. You CAN feel great again, really!! It's happened to me and many others. It can happen to you, believe me.

Please make that call to find out about an app't. with a Dr. and one with a counselor. If you don't have these people already I can tell you how to locate them if you want me to. I can give you a long list of things you can do to help yourself beginning now. I just want to know that you're feeling a whole lot better.

[gogogirl]

I just joined five minutes ago. I finally found a site where there were other people who struggle with depression and anxiety which I have had for years. I ruminate and blame myself for things that have happened in the past.

[gogogirl]

I too have been dealing with this for a long time. Narrowed down some causes, and know I can't go backwards in life- that is just it. The regrets thing is a nailer- so I try to make a list of what is good, and go for walks etc.

[BonnieSue in reply to gogogirl]

This is very wise. You can only do so much and that's what you're doing. You can apologize where appropriate and simply move on where you can't make amends. You control best the present and going forward; so decide what that will look like and do your best from this day onward.

[RENEENAY444]

ME TOO! I can totally relate to your post. I am feeling the exact same way.