Hey... New here.. This is both a sort-of-rant & a question. When I was a really young kid (before 7th grade), I had 4 instances where I choked on hard candies & a vitamin. 2 of the instances my mom performed the Heimlich on me & saved me. During 1 instance with a jolly rancher, I managed to hit myself enough in the abdomen to regurgitate it up (that was pure terror). Another time when I was 12 I was choking on hard candy during a studying period at school. About 20 other kids, the teacher, & a police officer stood/sat there in silence & watched me choke. I had to save myself. After that last experience, this intense fear of choking & dying while trying to swallow pills/capsules/softgels or eat/suck on hard candy gradually developed.. I remember that my mom gave up when I was around 15 trying to get me to continue taking my women's supplements. I just can't swallow a pill. This fear & dread that I might die when put it in my mouth makes me regurgitate it back up no matter how much liquids I drink with it. Makes my heartbeat race and I imagine myself dying slowly & painfully and I remember all the times I've choked & how painful & terrifying it felt... But the thing is, I have moderate to severe depression, and when I get antidepressants prescribed to me, what should I do?? How can I take pill form medication if I have this intense fear of taking pills??