Slowly Dying

[Therapist104]

I cry myself to sleep,

because no one wants to help me,

and I'm a little lonely.

I like the dreams,

where I'm flying,

and then I crash,

so that I'm slowly dying.

I also like the dreams,

where I'm a drug dealer,

and I don't give the people what they want,

so they slit my throat,

so then I'm slowly dying.

Even when I have,

people to help me,

everything just,

blacks out all the time.

I'm overwhelmed with,

thoughts that,

everyone hates me,

so why do I keep trying?

[Shnookie]

Your life is precious. Please contact the Suicide Prevention Hot Line -

800-273-8255. They R supportive and very compassionate. It is easy to talk to them.

[Therapist104 in reply to Shnookie]

I don't know about that. When I was 10 I was put into a suicide sycord, but they didn't do anything, so I don't trust it. Maybe I'll try it, let me think it over.

[bobbyrita in reply to Therapist104]

does your dog help you at all? are there any moments in the day or night when you get relief? Does taking a warm bath help? -800-971-0016 friendship line i have used that number twice already. it is free and you can talk to a kind volunteer for 10 minutes. you can call it everyday. that might be comforting. i hope you start calling them.fondly,

bobby

[Therapist104 in reply to bobbyrita]

Thanks Bobby. I might just try that. Hmm......Anyways, I prefer to shower, especially with my broken tail bone. I hurts just to move, but even more when I sit on a very hard surface.

[bobbyrita]

how did that happen and when did it happen? In a little more than a year i have fallen five times and every time it really starts to get better i fall again.I wish I could use a four letter word beginning in f. i have to use sponge baths. i don't see how you can be okay when you have that pain to deal with. i think it is so natural to be severely depressed. I wonder if you also feel rage directed inward. another four letter word beginning with s. i bought a large heating pad that i put in the microwave. that helps. i wonder if that can help. do you know when it will get better? Did anybody give you an idea how long it will take for the pain to go away/? please start calling that number every day and please more poems. can you walk? I have gotten so angry and frustrated that now i can't deal with people who irritate me even a little. I hardly now have any friends. I play nonstop music like Bocelli.fondly,

bobby