Hi, my name is Nancy and I have suffered from major depression for years. I have been on Lexapro, Remeron, and Trazadone for many, many years and they seem to keep me going. My problem right now is that my husband passed away on Oct. 12 of this year and I am really having a hard time with this. It just doesn't seem real to me. And with the holidays coming I just feel hopeless. My daughter and her newborn were living with me when my husband passed and when I wanted some financial help from her she just up and left. I don't think I will ever forgive her for bailing out on me when I needed her the most. My son calls me a couple of times a week to check up on me and I just feel he doesn't understand that I'm still hurting inside.