Come to a head for myself, father in law died 2 years ago I literally had his voice say goodbye to me in the middle of the night,mt hat has bothered me since. My own father died in March a man I had not seen in 30 years as the way he treated us all in our youth. I did not know what to think and felt wrong for feeling nothing and not knowing what to do. I had a health scare for cancer between April and now also which has really scared me to death as well. Loads of tests some painful and scans. My performance has dropped at work and I have not been getting the figures they want, when my boss gets me in I am on the edge of tears all the time my voice breaks when I try to explain. I have been unable to get rid of the feeling of being really down and tearful and my thinking feels fogged, I can't make decisions and what I do I do slowly and not in an ordered fashion. My confidence is shot, I don't feel I can do anything right as far as works concerned, the last six months have been the worst.