I would like to share my story. I'm just 16 and now I've been suffering from depression. It's been 3 months already. I always wonder what is depressed but I know how do the people are depressed feel like. I used to be a happy person and I laugh all time but now I miss my old me and I really want it back.
The reason that cause me depressed like that because I knew a lot creepy things such ghost or haunted things. I always think about all of them all the time and I'm worried that I will do wrong to all of them. All the things I'm worried about are all happened. I started thinking and imagining about them in bad ways and also said inappropriate words to them also. I always apology and ask them for forgiveness and also promise with them that I won't do like this again but I don't know why all those unwanted thoughts always pop in my mind and I always recall the time that I did wrong to them. Since that time , I can't control my thought anymore and I repeat doing this everyday. I also thinking about my mum in bad ways too. I suspect that I have INTRUSIVE THOUGHT . I want to get rid of it so much and I can't deal my life with it anymore. Before I used to fear of dying but not anymore. One day , if I can't deal with it , I have no longer to live in this world.