So...it's been a little over two years since my friend and I made out a few times and basically ruined our friendship by doing so. We have mutual friends & not only did it impact my relationship with my friend, it impacted my whole social life & it still does. As in, after he broke my heart it became painful to see him so to avoid running into him I felt I had to keep my distance from our friends as well.
It sucked and it still sucks. And I feel ridiculous for not having been over this long ago, especially considering we never even went out. But we were good friends for a couple years before and we told each other we loved each other so it hurt very much when he blew me off and didn't even make the effort to just straight up say "I'm not interested."
I think it is also the fact that my heart had been broken so many times before him so it was just the straw that broke the camel's back. Just being so tired of heartbreak in general.
Ever since, the city I live in has been clouded by this for me. I moved here because I needed a change, and it was awesome, but now it feels shrouded in this ache. Still have good times sometimes but this still effects me.
Also I see people who get over actual long-term relationships ten times quicker than I've gotten over this so it makes me feel so silly. Believe me, I want to let go of the hurt, the resentment, just let it go.
Anyone else find heartbreak hits them super hard, like harder than the average bear?