I've written here often about how much I long to have a dating life as I'm fairly old and have never been out on a date. I talk about the lovely relationships I see on other people's social media accounts and that's when it happens: people, trying to be kind, tell me that those relationships aren't perfect as if I don't know that. Of course, relationships have ups and downs, those are natural components of any type of connection made by imperfect beings. Sadly, there are some that are dangerous and that is also a byproduct of our humanity. Some of those relationships are short, some of them seem to have always been and are neverending. What I want to know is why, in our rush to be kind, we need to tear them down? We all know that what goes on our social media accounts is edited, that's nothing new. I'm talking about why we seem to love to tear them down without even knowing if they are one of the "sad" relationships or one of the healthy ones. I've never had one. Good or bad. I want the ups and downs, I want to meet a family that is not my own. I want to FINALLY bring someone home for the holidays. I want my family to stop looking at me as a child and feeling sorry for me behind my back. Of course I know that can't happen now but sometimes it's all I can think about and when I do that here, people feel a need to let me know, like I'm not a womna of 46 years who has seen plenty of good and bad relationships happen to other people, that I'm not seeing the whole truth. I know that.
I suppose it's also human to tear down what seems too perfect to save ourselves from wanting it too much.
That doesn't work for me. I still want it. I'm still here and I get to want things.