Hi everyone, been reading through some of your posts and amazing replies so was wondering if you could maybe help me too? I'm 24 yrs old and live by myself, with chronic pain and depression. I only receive ESA which is roughly £57 a week and have to pay for my flat, bills and car with this. I've applied for disability allowance and appealed several times with no luck. How can I be expected to live on nothing per week? By the time all of my bills are paid etc. I don't even have enough for food. Luckily my nanna buys little bits for me here n there. I'm literally stuck in such a rut its ridiculous! How am I supposed to get better if I can't even survive. I don't sleep well as my mattress is too soft. I couldn't walk in all my lovely boots and pretty shoes so gave them away and now I'm so sore I can't wear by bras need to buy sports ones or something but I have no money. Need to eat healthily but I have no money. Exercise would help greatly but can't afford fees for pool gym etc. Everything I need to get better seems to all come down to money and its making me feel so down as I can't work to help myself. I've always worked to pay my way, even with a slipped disc and after surgery. However it was last year when my conditions worsened that I had to finally say I'm too I'll to work. It killed me to admit that I'm I'll mentally and physically as I've always been so strong. I do as much as I can for myself. I do my core stability exercises and stretches every day I'm starting to manage my meds properly (finally). I've even started leavin my house a lot more as I used to be scared to leave incase people asked me to do things, or go out for food or drinks because my answer was always 'sorry I can't I've got no money' or 'im too sore/tired' eventually friends just stopped asking. Loneliness is such a terrible thing to deal with, but add chronic pain and depression in there n you've got a mixture for disaster. I've overdosed a few times fully intending to die but fortunately woken up after a lot of my medication wore off. I really don't want to leave life but I'm so stuck and alone I didn't see anyway out back then. I'm starting to feel the same horrid feelings agen and really need support and guidance. It feels like I'm being punished for being ill . How can people that are totally fine scam the system but somebody that actually needs help just be pushed away? This world is so unfair, help xx
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