i'm going through it at the moment as well. just found out my boyfriend got someone else pregnant and they are expecting twins. i'm trying to stay sane at the moment, i love him. i seem to know in my heart it won't work. i know what i envisioned for my future, and it was a family with him. but i'm jealous. and when those babies come i'm scared i'm not going to be able to handle it. he says he's sorry, & i do forgive him (again because of the off and on nature of our relationship). i want to stay, i am scared i won't find anyone else i can love as fiercely as i love him. my mood is so low. i literally spend all day taking deep breaths and moving as slowly as i can for fear of just bursting out into tears. i constantly have this cloudy feeling in my test. & i'm trying to focus on exams at the moment. finding it very difficult to concentrate.
i feel like i need to find the courage to let go.