hi to everyone may i first apologize for not being on this site two weeks ago i collapsed in tesco, and since then i've had trouble with my mind and memory, i've been to doctors this morning for my blood test results they have come back clear. my head at this moment is red in color the doctors don't know why, so i'm going to have some more tests done as to wonder why i'm like this, i was reading some of your comments so instead of me write to everyone individually i thought i would put up a post so i've only got to write this once. i'm not sure what's going off, when i sent the last post i didn't know what i was writing it just seemed the only way i could say something, i know i've caused many tears but its wasn't planned things just took a turn for the worsed. i don't even know what i'm writing if it make sense or not, but just to let you all know my dear friends i'm still here how long for i don't know until they can find out what's wrong with my head and why its red in color, its not though we have had sun shine, but with being on my own i had no choice but just to keep away from every thing until today. i hope that you all can forgive me for not letting someone know what was going off, i didn't know whether i would still be here, i am but for how long like i've said until the doctors can find out, i'm going to be back online as before and with keep you all informed from now on, to be honest i didn't think anybody was bothered until i started reading some of you posts just to find out that you do care and i should have told at least someone what was happening to me, i'm still not sure at the moment myself, i thought by doing it this way i've only got to explain once to all, i'm so sorry for causing so much stress to you kind and loving friends. well hopefully speak to some later today going for a test this afternoon at around 14:00pm so i won't be in then but should be back from 18:00pm on wards if not as soon as i can back i'll let you dear friends know. sorry again for you people getting upset i didn't know at that time what was happening.
love to you all my dear friends from BIGALAN XXXX