I have now stayed in my home for 8 years .. I dont go out or mix with people due to my depression. Ive not been to the doctors as I cant go out. I have no friends no life and im frightened. Every day is so hard to get thro . i think of ways to kill myself and then feel depressed that I cant even do that. My mind never stops thinking .I wish it would just for a little while.. Why is this life so hard ? why do we have to feel this way . why cant it all stop ?