Disastrous couple of weeks, have really set me back with everything lately..
My feel good is starting to come back. Now all the clothes that didn't fit or looked horrible are gone, I've now managed to find a pair of shorts to go with things - was dubious about them at the start, as they looked awful, but I did try them on over leggings.... I tried them later sans leggings and they looked much better ahah.
I've found THE cutest bikini I've ever owned, it cost me a bomb, so I'm going to be wearing the same one all holiday (it's covered in little tropical parrots!) I had to get a size 20 in the top though!! It fits perfectly, as long as I don't lose any boob between now and going!
Also finally managed to find a pair of flip flops. My holiday dedicated shopping is complete - anything else is a pick up on the way if it's in sale. So I don't have any pressure to find something! At last. Still a little concerned about my stretch marks on my stomach and hips - unsure whether it makes it looks like I've had a child or that it's obvious I'd put on weight... Yet to decide.
I've moved out and I am going to blame the mirrors at my Uncle and Aunts house - sure they turned against me towards the end, as I'm back to feeling pretty good. But then the weather could be helping as it is now turning to jacket weather! Which means I can hide some things.
Still slightly disappointed that I have maintained for another week. I do much prefer it than to gaining, of course! But my motivation has completely plummeted the past couple of weeks.
Through feeling crap, maintaining and I've been having major trouble with my car insurance too, which has also cost me a lot of money!!
I will admit, I have skipped the 5th and 6th for strength September, as my back is still sore from moving and my ankle has been rather stiff from it too. Seem okay today though, so shall be in my room squatting away (have a slightly flat ass thanks to my mother! Hoping some regular squats will help give it more shape!)
I went to dinner at my mum and dad's last night, my sister was there too. I have seen her gain weight over the years and she is bigger than me now. As mean as it sounds, I am kind of glad (we never have gotten on and never will, so it's okay!) I can see where she is heading (my mum blames her contraception, my dad and I blame her terrible eating and drinking (energy and sugar) habits) So I think it gives me a bit more of a boost to stay and be even more; the slimmer sibling. I have tried giving her advice, but she hasn't listened, so if she wants to end up like my mum - extremely overweight, not able to do anything because of weight and weight related health issues - then that is her decision. I've seen what it's like when your mum did nothing as a kid because she was too overweight, and it isn't something to aspire to.
There wasn't a massive point, but I think life stresses are starting to get to me a bit and it's dragging my mojo down. Troubles with my car, car insurance, finances, I may be losing my job come Christmas, still mentally dealing with the after effects of a break up, still trying to sort through the grieving process. It is just all getting on top of me - this is why I feel like I need someone to follow me around telling me what I can and cannot do!
That isn't to say I feel like going out and getting take aways and binge eating. I just cant be bothered with the effort of finding healthy recipes or cooking decent food, all convenience stuff is more attractive. Or putting effort in to getting active. Well the weird thing is, is I find I can have more time for strength exercises than things like cardio at the moment - think it's because when you are doing your sets, you can count down to the end haha.
Go for Strength September!!!!!!!! If I don't do anything majorly cardio based, I'll be sure that I get these toning exercises in!!!!!!
I have a photo on my phone from 18 July and I had taken another on 30 Aug. Even though nothing has changed measurement wise, I feel like you can see a different in my stomach and waist size. But I don't know if it's the angle or I'm tricking myself into thinking that. I would put it up, but the second pic I've got my nicknaks on, not leggings!
All I can say is if you stick with it, you'll feel prouder of yourself than if you gave in. You're doing so well! 
almost back to post baby weight
This Time I'm Doing It.
Tackling the weight gain being hypothyroid
I want to lose the weight I gained, but it's hard to restart with all the negativity, especially with my family. 
Back again!
