I am so unhappy and angry at myself right now! I keep trying and trying to lose weight but keep failing and end up putting weight on!
I have been trying to diet for years and am so fed up with it! I had one really good year where I really focused and lost a lot of weight. But since then it's just creeping back on and I can't seem to stop it.
I have loads of excuses! Sometimes it's stress or I'm too tired or I have other priorities. Or I blame the snacks on offer at work. Or the kids just drive me mad. Or are begging for a treat day (aka takeaway). But sometimes, a lot of the time, it's just me.
I look at my day, plan my meals, calculate my calories, plan in lots of healthy fruit and veg and protein to fill me up. I drink my 2 litres of water. I exercise an hour and a half every day. I start off well... then I get home from work and I am HUNGRY. And tired. If I am bad I grab snacks before dinner. But even if I try with all my will to not give in and have dinner I am STILL STARVING right after dinner and I just eat and eat.
So there goes my calorie budget for the day! Again!
I just googled appetite suppressants I feel that desperate! But I don't really believe they are genuine and articles say they can be dangerous.
I am at a loss. I feel like I need stronger willpower but I just can't describe here how all consuming the hunger is when it hits! I wonder if its because I've been yo yo dieting so long my hunger hormones are completely messed up!