When you feel so unwell for so long, apart from becoming very stoical, when you've spent so much money, seen so many people over the years and you never feel anywhere near 'right'....you just put up with it and accept less and less... but It all piles up. I'm feeling very low today and surprisingly emotional ..crying a lot..feeling pretty overwhelmed.
Something has triggered the camel and straw snapping syndrome with me today.
I guess I'm brim full.
Fed up of everything really.
I feel abandoned. My hospital notes were lost in 2019. Due to Brexit my exceptionally brilliant Italian specialist decided to return home to Italy in late 2018...since she left I've only had a single pathetic, superficial, lip-service letter from her dismissive head of department. My excellent, since retired GP wrote to the same head of department 4 times from last autumn to just before lockdown and he's never once had any response whatsoever. He incidentally is absolutely shocked at the professional discourtesy apart from anything else...
The surgery has this January had also skewed the system so that T3 and T4 blood tests are no longer available.
Just before lockdown the paltry blood tests I had had done, the TSH only of course came back as 'high' (my blood test copies are at my Mom's at the moment. She has a file on me as thick as a tree trunk- don't know what I'd do without her!)...
A new GP bless her tried to be as reassuring as she could and in typical fashion focused totally on the TSH values, to the exclusion of everything else... Nothing new there...She didn't know anything about my long history and the phone conversation was just ticking boxes... Useless really...
And then today I read something rather interesting by chance, that I shall have to go back and mull over again...to let it all silt down in my turbulent brain! It refers to the connection between mumps and thyroid issues, one particularly rare in occurrence! Could this be it? Could this be why everybody I see is baffled by my poor response to medication? Is it because they don't understand the true nature of my thyroid dysfunction?
I had actually have mumps at about age 6.
Then at 15 I caught scarlet fever and had a very bad time of it...and at the tail end went down with mumps for the second time!! The doctor could not explain it any other way, he said it was mumps again!
Then at 38 from a blood test I was informed I actually had Epstein Barr antibodies too! But 2 years before I had been so ill, I'd spent the entire summer out in the garden everyday, laying on a sunlounger under a blanket, being read to by my mother for months, for having such exhaustion I could hardly lift my head...
So, I've got to bite the bullet and find the funds from somewhere to pay for private blood tests.
I presume Blue Horizon is the best service. I am Hashimotos. I have at least 17 food intolerances; I have to avoid totally, gluten, dairy soya, all forms of legumes, grass fed meats, beef and lamb, book choi, fennel, celery, etc... food packaging becomes an obsession. After ingesting gluten in particular I can be ill for up to 6 weeks. It's a nightmare.
I had a horrific response to levo. My then GP made me take it for over a year, choosing not to believe me!!! Long story short, I became severely thyroid toxic; so eventually I was allowed to try Armour, it would have been easier to get a private audience with the Pope! But my results were not brilliant; again my diminished improvement dwindled over time but without producing the dreadful reaction levo did... So I eventually tried gentle bovine thyroid replacement. So far it's been the most benign...but I'm still not right. Clearly its downhill from this point on! I never see any real improvement...It's only my iron will that keeps me functioning and doing all that I do, but today on this beautiful peaceful day, I feel the cracks are really starting to show.
And that's me, here today..
My digestion/absorption/vitamin situation is so bad my GP fears I could be on the verge of malnutrition most of the time, my diet is so restrictive!
My question is, can I get away with just T3 and T4 test for now, or should I also do a cortisol test too; I do have adrenal fatigue..
Many thanks for taking the time to read my edited list of woes.
Poppy the 🐈