I am still shaken about an experience last night that I've never been in before. It's taken me until now to even post about it. Sorry for the length. The fact that I did not light up after being so scared I think is proof to me that this quit is for the long hall.
quick background: I was forced to move in January of this year, due to the building I was living in being permanently closed, which the notice was given to myself and the other tenants December 27, 2015.
I am now renting the first floor of a home and my land lords live on the second floor. it was a hasty move so I didn't have much time to think or get info on the people I was moving under.
The husband / wife are heavy drinkers, and this was not the first time that I've heard them screaming at eachother which already stresses me out.
but what I heard last night, shook me to my core. I heard loud banging as if furniture were being knocked over..and then the yelling started, I went to shower to drown them out and I heard the husband say "I am going to put a bullet in your head" to his wife, then he said it one more time, slower..more thoughtful.
I couldn't even move, I know there are guns in the home, he used to hunt and does target shooting, I have my license to carry but I have not purchased my first fire arm yet (I've been at ranges and I'm a very good shot and I enjoy target shooting very much), all I have is a baseball bat for protection from where I lived before and was hoping I would never feel a need to use it.
I texted my father with what I had just heard and he told me to get out of there and to come to my parents house, when I got there I tried to call the wife to see if she was OK, but the phone picked up and hung up, I tried calling a second time and the phone was busy.
my parents told me to wait with them for 30 mins and then try calling again, I wasn't sure if I should call the police or if this was a typical drunken fight for them and I just hadn't heard it get this bad..i did finally get a hold of the wife, she assured me he's only verbally not physically abusive and would never hurt me..needless to say...it doesn't make me feel 1 ounce better. I told her that I was scared for her and for me, and that she shouldn't put up with that, he threatened her...I told her I almost called the police and she just thanked me for my concern. she said he got too rough with their dog (who is older) the dog nipped at him and that set him off, she told him to be quiet and leave the dog along which is when the whole fight blew up.
I am very uncomfortable now being in my home, moving this year was such a stress, and now I know I need to move again.
no one need to respond if you don't wish too, I just needed to get this off my chest as I've not been able to focus much at work coz a cig keeps sounding good right about now.
x
BUT you didnt light up and I truly BOW down to you 
i really feel for you here. well done for not lighting up though, thats really good and shows you are moving forward in your quit journey 
At last
Took a drag last week
Life and Death.
Normally I would've had a cigarette.
