I say these things, not because I want to be so negative, but because I think it is important for the community, medical, political or otherwise to hear that these treatments are not working for many people. It is important, in conjunction with helping people to cope with the world's failed understanding of our devastating conditions, the world knows the true devastating nature of our chronic pain. I might not have a terminal illness, but it can destroy my life, and has already done so in several ways. It could permanently cause me to cease to exist by my lack of acceptance of my constant failed desire and attempts at some kind of recovery. I also wonder sometimes why so many of these posts are all 3 years old. Does that mean they found a cure or jumped off a building somewhere? I might be trying to soar like an eagle too soon if this pain doesn't subside in a few months and my symptoms get worse. This disease has already consumed ,with a greedy passion, a chunk of my life and my family's life. My life has taken on a new unwanted meaning now. A meaning of forced solitude, pain, suffering, no hopes of furthering a career, constant fear of losing my job, and maybe never being able to see my son again because of a failed attempt at taking my life brought on by this condition. Thank you chronic illness and pain! At least give me something that isn't painful and so disrupting to living life please. These thing, when combined in their evil concoction, make up a volatile recipe made up of depression, suicidal thoughts, and self hatred. Please world! Listen to our cries of suffering!!! These conditions are destroying people's lives and dreams, young and old!! They are destroying mothers, fathers, and children! I know this post isn't uplifting, but what about our condition of life long pain is uplifting? I think it as important for those in the world to see the ugly side of things as well as the good side of things. When we close our eyes, the boogeyman doesn't always go away. Sometimes he sits on our shoulders and taunts us till we lose our minds and our souls.