So only around 8 weeks ago I finally had the courage to go to the doctors, threaten to tie myself to the chair unless they took a blood test and insist on them taking me seriously...
At 24 I left school at 16 and have worked with horses ever since. A job/lifestyle I live for and can't ever give up. But when I found myself earlier in the year with back pain/numb legs and severe depression leaving me unable to leave the house I found myself longing for the old energetic me to return. All doctors for the last 4 years have just given me anti depressants but I think I've always known it wasn't what it was, but me being silly I have buried my head in the sand and soldiered on.
So when my results came back that I was B12 and vitamin D deficient I felt a sense of relief that it wasn't in my mind and my back didn't need operating on as the lack of ability to use my legs was from my nervous system being attacked.
However, living in the type of community I do that is rural and isolated I have found myself feeling sad that no one understands that when I have days that I can't "cope" with they are rude and make snide comments at me. People my age are dismissive and don't understand how painful it is when my throat closes and tounge swells that I can't speak.
I feel determined to get my career back on track and start to swim as it really is my let down in life. I have had my 6 injections however I seem to feel like my symptoms have become worse?! A little saddening but I keep reminding myself I have managed for 4 years like this so what's a few more weeks eh?!
I have joined this site in the hope that I can read and educate myself on what I am suffering from and read and be inspired by others who have had to deal with it themselves. Thanks for the education I very much appreciate it as my doctors have done nothing to educate me!!