I won a gift voucher in a raffle this weekend, which is fantastic! The voucher is for a complementary health centre so I emailed them to find out what they do there. I decided to mention the pain and asked what they'd recommend.
They've sent a nice email back & suggested I go for a free consultation and then book something from there. They're suggesting osteopathy & / or acupuncture. I've had both in the past (for quite a long time) but they weren't very successful.
Now I feel a bit nervous. I'm going to have to go through the process of explaining my medical history all over again. I'll have to get in to the habit of going to appointments and being a patient again. I don't like being the patient. I might have to undress - horrors! They'll try to diagnose me - everyone you talk to about pain, expert or lay person likes to make a diagnosis, even though I've got an official one now.
I suppose I should toughen up & get on with it. I've been putting off going back to appointments for almost 2 years now (ever since the girl doing the massages tried to diagnose me & I decided not to go back). It's been lovely having a little holiday from appointments, apart from the pain clinic, but I can't run away forever.
Anyway, I can't go before new year because life is too busy right now. The gift voucher expires end of January so I'll have no excuse after Christmas. I know what everyone's thinking, I'm lucky really and I shouldn't look a gift-horse in the mouth (what's a gift-horse ayway?) but I think I am a little bit scared. Silly moo.