I am not enjoying this new life of pain , I am not sure the word pain comes near the suffering inflicted on one’s body and mind. I find it strange how pain rises and falls , I have learned so much to help live this life of discomfort a life of suffering, trying to keep your mind / brain from going mad.
My body changes from cold to freezing to hurting all over , I can’t move , my brain cannot focus.
I struggle to push through the air , my skin sore , so much love for me , I try to hold back the tears, I try to distract my thoughts from not wanting to continue on this terrible journey.
I manage to reach for my iPad and earphones turn the music up loud louder, Indian running horse for pain , drum , beating hollowing , chanting , let the music in let the chanting in , change my breathing, focus, the pain is draining out of me .
Amazing it has worked for a while how long , I don’t know.
I share this with you all knowing we all experience suffering of one kind and another, trying to use many aids .
The power of music is amazing if you are able to hear listen, I guess we must remember many cannot hear. For those of us that can and suffer, I have worked at finding the right music beat rhythm to tune into , it works.
When we are in crisis a body head mind pain , use the music and remember you are not alone this world is chaotic and challenging.
Working hard to keep the medication balanced, using strategies to help.
Music for me is a great help as is this group just sorry we all have to live this rollercoaster life.
Love to you all , and know you are not alone xxxxx David