I struggling to get my head around the fact that my pain has drastically increased over the last six months. I am on so many meds now that I'm sure I must rattle as I walk. My MST is upto 90 every 12hrs plus all the other meds. I'm struggling to cope day to day with simple things like getting dressed or taking a shower. I live with my mam after I was medically discharged from the army and I know she is really struggling with it as well. I now have occupational therapist involved and the are getting me a electric bed to try and help me to sleep better and other bits of equipment. It's only taken since 2008 to start getting some decent support. I called SSAFFA and they are looking into how they can help, with things like a mobility scooter, and seeing if any other military charities can help. I feel so tired and wish that I could wake up and it all be gone. Just so sick of it and the fact that family can never truly understand that I don't know what to do.