am feeling fed up. I have suffered chronic back pain most of my adult life, in the dorsal region. Repeated trips to the doc when I was younger were a waste of time as I left the surgery time and again with leaflets about how to do back exercises.
I went to live in Canada for a few years and within 6 months of living there, the doc agreed such pain in a 30 something woman wasn't normal, he looked at my spine and could see something wasn't right (I have a curvature), Sent me to get Xrayed and blood tested and within 48 hours I was diagnosed with osteoarthritis and Scheurmann's disease plus a curvature of the spine at dorsal level.
Came back to the UK armed with my medical documents and saw my doctor.
Sent to physio where a morbidly obese nurse told me I needed to do more exercise (I had already told her I had 15 dogs, kept pigs, goats poultry, grew my own fruit and veg, and at 7 stone,I was hardly overweight and was strong). I am afraid my pain makes me grumpy and I simply said "you need to take a dose of your own medicine" and left the room.
I currently take 70mg dihydrocodeine every 4 hours (sometimes 3 hours if I'm in real agony) and then 60mg Tramadol late at night so I get 6 or 7 pain free hours and can sleep. However after 20 odd years on this, I am now in almost constant pain. As a result I am doing less and less, had to get rid of all the livestock, spend most of the day sitting with the T.E.N.S. machine on, and getting grumpy, bad tempered and putting on weight.
I have tried speaking to the doctor and all he does is offer me antidepressants, presumably so as to make me feel happy about being in pain. I'm fed up with hurting NOT clinically depressed!
I will be 60 in March but frankly feel like my useful life is over . No I'm not depressed. I'm normally the most cheerful person you can meet and a barrel of laughs. I'll have you splitting your sides. But I am SICK of my land being left to weeds and nettles because I hurt too much to actually do anything.
Is this it for me? Will I spend whatever time I have left on this earth unable to actually live my life and constantly be in pain, planning afternoons out around painkiller doses, timing it so I am lucid and safe to drive, and also figuring out where there are places to sit (Sorry I will NOT use a wheelchair. Was in one 10 years ago and it's just not me if I can avoid it), or avoiding going out at all.
I have been given Pethedine before now and it's horrible. Still feel the pain but spend my days asleep. Oromorph does the same. The only time I feel normal-ish is when my lungs go on strike and I have to take steroids. Amazingly there is also no pain.
So, what would you do? Is anyone or has anyone else been in this situation? What painkiller should I ask the doc for given that what I am now taking is really not effective for most of the time (I get some relief about 20 minutes after I take the dose, for about an hour, before the pain starts to build again).
I realise I'm not a young woman and have used my small frame remorselessly in my youth, carrying heavy (25kg) sacks of feed, bales of hay and straw, buckets of water, shoving horses about etc, but surely there must be some kind of effective pain control which isn't going to make me sleep (I might as well just have myself put to sleep) and whereby I can have some sort of life? If I thought that taking steroids permanently was the answer I'd do it.
I'd really love another driving pony, to keep the weeds in the paddock down, be able to go out and about the lanes locally with some of the dogs, but as things are, I'd be exhausted and hurting after tacking up and then have to go and lay down for an hour. A trip to the supermarket, then unloading the shopping renders me fit for nothing for the next 48 hours. I may be alive, but I'm not as alive as I'd like to be.
Excuse the long diatribe, sometimes just ranting helps.
How is it in the 21st century, with cures for all kinds of diseases, and all manner of wonder things which can be done to replace body parts, even get paraplegic people walking, how come there is no sure fire effecting means of stopping pain??????
If this internet thingy stays around, in 200 years time will people read this and gasp in horror at how primitive we must have been that we still had wasted human lives because of chronic pain?