I've just arrived back from the hospital after receiving my ct scan results.
There is no sign of cancer on my liver, gallbladder, adrenals, kidneys, pancreas etc...
I do however have a new prominent sidewall lymph node. Largest measuring 9mm.
My oncologist has said this may have been there all the time and my previous ct scan didn't pick it up as it is less than 1cm so depends where the scan cut. He's not worried about it. Just wants to watch and wait.
I asked was this good news and he just said there is some uncertainty.
I think that's as good as it is gonna get from him. Always gonna be uncertainty from now on.
I am starting avastin with my last carbo treatment hopefully this Friday.
I think I will be more pleased once the chemo is finished.
I don't know what I was expecting, I thought I would be relieved but I think it's just dawned on me that uncertainty is the best to come, just got to learn to deal with it.
Is it normal to feel like this??