Retroactive jealously and OCD is ruining my life. Becoming emotionally dependant on partner. Seek anti-depressant advice

[ClayD]

Hi everyone. I'm a male in my 20s and my partner and I are madly in love.

She's so perfect for me and that idea makes this so much worse as a result. I feel sick constantly and its ruining my life.

I cannot deal with her sexual past and I think about it so much and it hurt so bad. I've gone into rumination now and can't get out of the habit of this excessive thinking. I've recently started snooping too which makes things so much worse (received a text etc).

I have tried counselling but it hasnt seem to have worked for me. I was wondering if anyone knows of any medication which may relieve the symptoms and allow me to enjoy my life.

I have been on antidepressants before but they gave me bad ED issues which I'd like to avoid in whichever anti depressant I take next.

Any info would he greatly appreciated.

Thanks.