I find myself doing a minimum amount of chores or tasks daily, wether I feel like it or not. Then there is my mother in law. She has told my daughter that I would feel better if I did more housework. Excersise does not count if it is not outside. I should not wear orthotics as it nearly crippled her. I should not take pain killers.etc
I am relieved that my f.i.l is well enough to travel again. They have gone to US for four days. I can walk around without fear of disturbing them. My husband is a plumber who is currently on call. I am jealous of his freedom and resent that he is away at least twelve hours a day. He also has his buddies. He came home at two thirty am last night. He went on a call at seven and called at 11:30 pm to say he would be having tea with his coworker. I finally called him at two in angry state of mind. Clearly, if tables were turned he would not be so cavalier . I do beleive it was innocent just completely inconsiderate.
I also struggle with guilt every time I eat something. Many of the drugs promote weight gain and I use cannabis as an anti inflammatory as I am allergic to Naproxen . It stimulates your desire to eat everything you see. I was underweight until recently now have gain a small amount. It is so hard to eat normal when you cannot exercise. It has rained all but two day in March. We also had significant snow and cold this year. All of which stopped my daily walks. The other fact is I am an insomniac . I am up by 5 or earlier, everyday. The universe insuring I don't miss a minute of this lol. So hard not to fill your boredom with food. Sorry for ranting , despite the only sun we have had in awhile, feeling so down. Another reason to feel guilty is Easter! I just have no strength to cook a big meal an entertain, even if it is family. So we are going out for dinner. But to be truthful that is exhausting. I know people cannot see our fatigue, pain but being in constant pain , not sleeping ...I do not want to put on a happy face.😞
I do wish you all the very best holiday , Happy 🐣