843 cigs.... it seems crazy when I look at the figures.
It’s so nice to have money in the bank... usually I live fortnight to fortnight, but for the first time in for ever I have money in my account.
Tonight I couldn’t settle though... up and down, cleaning cupboards, snacking. Was annoyingly ... haven’t been thinking about smoking at all over the last week so wasn’t expecting it.
Still don’t want to go back...
Hey Nowandforever - good to hear from you and that you are continuing to fight hard - these out of the blue strong cravings are perfectly normal and will get easier to overcome each time you encounter them, I promise.... you have a great mindset to succeed, never loose that no matter what comes your way.
As a matter of interest, are you still using the patches? If so, have you increased or decreased the use of them as this may be one of the reasons you are having strong cravings?
You are also in the thick of the mental battle, below pinned post is worth a read if not already done so:
healthunlocked.com/nosmokin...
Hi Roisin,
I original quit on the sat with patches, but relapsed on the Tuesday night and smoked a packet in that evening. I was laying in bed, heart pumping from the pack I’d just smoked, when I just went enough is enough.
so I got up... this was 1.30am and pumped myself up with determination, decided on my mindset... I was at war with nicotine.
I reset my app and I stopped the patches and went nicotine free from then.
It’s funny you mention it though, I have a teenager that has just started experimenting with smoking .... And I know she smoked one in her room, I’m sure it set me off tonight.
How ironic as my reason for stopping almost 3 years ago 17 September was very similar, woke up in the middle of the night, coughing and not able to get my breath.
When I was eventually able to get out of the bed after about 20 minutes,(really scared me), went downstairs, lit up a cigarette, took a puff and started coughing again, stumped it out and said the exact same thing 'enough is enough, they are going to kill me', went back up to bed and hyped myself up that I was never going to smoke again, that night was the last time a cigarette touched my lips.
I see my same determination as I have in you, good for you!!
Oh... wow, I can only hope to be as successful as you have been, and your helping and inspiring so many people.
Thank you Roisin.
What’s ironic for me is that almost the moment I stopped smoking my daughter started this.
It broke my heart to see her smoke and has helped keep me determined to stay off them. I have shown them dependence over the years with this addiction but now it’s time to show them that non of us need it.
I know the feeling, it breaks my heart too seeing my family smoke, Mam, 2 brothers and 2 sisters my Dad stopped years ago, but we all hope they will see sense and stop, was out there last month for my sisters 40th, out of 10 of us, only myself and my husband were ex smokers, spent half the night out smoking between courses - took the whole enjoyment out of the meal, we ended up going home early after in the pub as were out in the smoking area 
I stopped a year and a half after my husband stopped, I wished I could be like him every time I lit up, hopefully your daughter will not get taken too far into the addiction trap of Mr Nico and be inspired by you....
How is things now Nowandforever ?
Ive been good...but just spent 2 1/2 hrs with a friend who smokes like a chimney inside.
Felt really uncomfortable breathing in the smoke and now I can smell it all over me.
It’s one of the difficult things I think.... friends that you love that smoke.
Still going strong though.
Thanks for asking.
50 days smoke free now Nowandforever - hope you are well and things continue to go ok for you?
Hi Roisin,
Not quite, my app says 45days, I slipped in that first few days (that was when I bought that pack and smoked them and was lying bed.... I think I told you about it. How I just went enough) so I reset from that next day.
Doing well, having lots of issues with my teenage daughter, one is that she keeps smoking in her room and the smell and smoke comes straight to my bedroom - it’s triggering me. But not giving in to nico.
Oh apologies Nowandforever - don't recall the slip, have amended my records - well done on continuing to fight hard, you are doing great!
I would set ground rules with your daughter and smoking in her bedroom, she is under your roof and has to respect and understand the huge fight you have with stopping and that it is affecting your recovery - I know its probably easy for me to say but you and your smoke free life is your priority and nothing should come in the way of it and jeopardize it.....
Cleaning, snacking, whatever you need to do not to spoke is a price worth paying.
It's amazing how much we have wasted on cigarettes through the years. Stay strong.
The money you don’t spend on those sh*tty things is great 👍
My first spend was £650 on a new tent ..
I have cash in my wallet all the time now ..
I smoked hand rolled ..so think it was £12.00 something for 25g of tobacco x 2 , sometimes 3 a 7 day week !!!
I tell people at work now who smoke and smoke cigarettes, and 20 a day £10.00 odd a day .. that’s some serious cash savings for you 👍
Quite a shock tonight!
Feeling heaps better and 21 weeks tonight :D
At 10.30pm tonight...
