Hey y'all! So here I am, over 8 months smoke free, and I am kicking butt. The only problem is my wanting to rely on a cigarette to get through tough times. Naturally it will be my hardest feat because, after all, that is why I smoked. I thought it helped me with the things I had no solution to at the moment. Like today for instance, I had a tough day trying to hold it together and not letting people see me upset. I went to see my Lawyer today to file for a divorce from my husband of 11 years. Man, the fog I was in today... I told my mom that I wanted a cigarette and a beer (and I don't even drink). That's how terrible I felt. She said, "Don't start smoking because you've come this far." I said, " Oh believe me I'm not because it has been rough enough for me as is." It hasn't really been all that rough, except giving up something to do with my hands. Lately I find myself twirling my hair and chewing more gum. I have to be doing something with my hands and mouth it seems. Must be nerves to go with it. Any way, I will report that I have a lot of energy. So much so that I just want to run, run, run and it's odd bc I used to hate running. I just wish I had time to go run these days. Anyway, hope everyone is staying strong. I'm smoke free today and make a pact not to smoke based off my emotions and feelings. I can stay smoke free through a stressful time such as divorce. One day at a time. Love yall!!