Just checking in. Okay, so I am nearing my 6 month mark and man o man it's been a little hard this month so far. I am taking a hard class and it's stressing me like crazy because I just want to pass it with an A or a B, but it looks like a C will end up being my grade as of now. I've accepted that, but it's like my chest hurts the last few days and belly issues so I'm not feeling 100%.
I actually craved a cig for the first time in a long time yesterday while I was driving and I was like what is happening here? I tossed some gum in my mouth and took a few deep breaths and kept on driving. I thought that this would get easier as time passed? lol.. My body doesn't want a cigarette. It's my mind telling me to do what it was so used to doing. It makes me anxious now thinking about having that craving because I really don't want to smoke again. I don't plan to. Just stressed out.
Divorce is inevitable for me and I'm in the grieving stages as my mentor tells me and it's tough. I quit around the time I quit hearing from my husband. Odd how that happened.. Anyway, this is a no smoking blog, not Ricki Lake. I just wanted to inform folks to keep vigilant because these cravings sneak up on ya. It freaked me out, but I think I'll be okay. Love ya'll and hope everyone is doing well, living a smoke free life God bless!