Haven't posted much been dealing with issues - proud to say I am still SMOKE FREE and loving every minute of it!.
I received devastating news on Friday, my Baby brothers wife has been given weeks to live after major surgery and radiation to combat cancer (not smoking related)
Upon receiving the news I called my wife to the boardroom to give her the bad news , by this stage I was in tears.
After we had a good crying session and the OH was off to the fire escape for a smoke , I though GOD I need a smoke and nearly did! then I thought NO its the LAST thing I need! the Family is in crisis and I am going to have to be there 24/7 I cant do that whilst nipping out every 15 minutes for a smoke so yea common sense prevailed I have to say facing this smoke free was easier that I thought - cause I wasn't impatient or craving or counting down the minutes to the next smoke!
So I suppose if I could make it through this past weekend I think I can handle anything, look I am not going to let my guard down but yea I think it is a formality another 10 months and I am sure I will be in the penthouse!
Sorry for the depressive post had to get it off my chest