Loving it!

Hi everyone,

Haven't posted much been dealing with issues - proud to say I am still SMOKE FREE and loving every minute of it!.

I received devastating news on Friday, my Baby brothers wife has been given weeks to live after major surgery and radiation to combat cancer (not smoking related)

Upon receiving the news I called my wife to the boardroom to give her the bad news , by this stage I was in tears.

After we had a good crying session and the OH was off to the fire escape for a smoke , I though GOD I need a smoke and nearly did! then I thought NO its the LAST thing I need! the Family is in crisis and I am going to have to be there 24/7 I cant do that whilst nipping out every 15 minutes for a smoke so yea common sense prevailed I have to say facing this smoke free was easier that I thought - cause I wasn't impatient or craving or counting down the minutes to the next smoke!

So I suppose if I could make it through this past weekend I think I can handle anything, look I am not going to let my guard down but yea I think it is a formality another 10 months and I am sure I will be in the penthouse!

Sorry for the depressive post :( had to get it off my chest

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  • Gazzabsa - I am so sorry to hear of your terrible news, sending positive thoughts to you and your family.

    But look how positive your post is - it's wonderful to think that you can face such hard times and still appreciate how great it is not to be smoking. Keep it up friend, keep being positive, keep being strong and keep posting.

    Wishing you and your family courage and the time to spend smiling with each other in your tough times. xxx

  • Very sad to read your news, sometimes I think life can be really cruel.

    Well done you! Fantastic!

    You are doing really well and you are right, it's times like this that test everyone's will power and you should be so proud!

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!

  • Hi everyone,

    Haven't posted much been dealing with issues - proud to say I am still SMOKE FREE and loving every minute of it!.

    I received devastating news on Friday, my Baby brothers wife has been given weeks to live after major surgery and radiation to combat cancer (not smoking related)

    Upon receiving the news I called my wife to the boardroom to give her the bad news , by this stage I was in tears.

    After we had a good crying session and the OH was off to the fire escape for a smoke , I though GOD I need a smoke and nearly did! then I thought NO its the LAST thing I need! the Family is in crisis and I am going to have to be there 24/7 I cant do that whilst nipping out every 15 minutes for a smoke so yea common sense prevailed I have to say facing this smoke free was easier that I thought - cause I wasn't impatient or craving or counting down the minutes to the next smoke!

    So I suppose if I could make it through this past weekend I think I can handle anything, look I am not going to let my guard down but yea I think it is a formality another 10 months and I am sure I will be in the penthouse!

    Sorry for the depressive post :( had to get it off my chest

    Hey Gazza, so sorry to hear of your terrible news - wishing you and your family strength and courage to get through this difficult time.

    Well done on not caving in to that one to deal with what is going on at the moment, that is a great achievement and will stand to you......

  • Awful news gazza. Best wishes to you and your family. If you can keep up your quit through something like that you can do it through anything.

  • Tragic news Gazza. Well done not succumbing to temptation.

  • Thanks guys, much appreciated :)

  • Stay strong Gazzabsa....bad news but you have turned it positive...

    Wishing you and your family courage and strength....!!

  • Hi All,

    Thank for all the words of encouragement!

    PROUD to say I am still nicotine FREE, It is truly wonderful to be free of that HORRIBLE addiction!

    In the first week I thought I would never make it, but yea here I am 6 Days in to Month 2 absolutely loving the new smoke free me, I still have fleeting thoughts of smoking but they are gone in seconds - sooo hopefully at this rate it should be smooth sailing.

  • As always Gazza,your posts put a smile on my face :) It should be smooth sailing alright but we may hit a few waves - some big and some small but will calm down quickly (does for me...)

    PS Hope things are going ok with your brothers wife and rest of your family and that you all are getting the strength to come to terms with it and to fight it....

  • I am so very sorry ....and thanks for sorting me out! I was just about to post about how stressful my life is at the moment....but it puts things in perspective....be strongx

  • Hey...no one's problem is bigger than ours, don't underestimate your problem, whatever it is :) there's a reason why we are all here, this is the place where you're allowed to vent, rant... Cry, celebrate...no fingers pointed, no aftermath... Anytime you have something bugging you shout it out loud, let it out of your chest.

  • So very, very true guys - out problems ALLWAYS seem insignificant when come across someone with worse troubles :)

    My moth ALLWAYS said never look up , always look down and be grateful for your station in life.

    Cant understand why since last night ALL I have wanted to do is smoke! - its is as bad as it was in week2.

    It doesn't make sense ? this should be happening in month three *Sigh* every five or ten minutes I keep wanting to go buy a pack!!!!

  • Remember, everything is allowed but smoking is NOT an option.

  • Hey Gazzabsa, I went through the exact same at your stage of the quit and could not understand why it was happening, but this is common and quite normal.

    The mental battle is very tough at this stage and the nicodemon really gets working in our brains but it will pass, keep fighting, you can do it!

  • Ditto! Gazza, I believe I mentioned this to you before, my big struggle was always week 5/6... Every single time I relapsed around that time.

    Now is the time to stop and be smart.

    It is surely and purely your mind coming to terms with your quit. You need to win this one.

    How are you feeling? Sad,anxious, palpitations, aggressive...

    Identify your symptom and find a solution for it.

    Aggressive behaviour

    You will need to chill, magnesium powder with kalms

    Green tea extract

    Depression

    Higher nature brain nutrients

    Palpitations

    Magnesium powder

    In any case: get to the natural shop and buy some gabba supplements, it helps to normalise the neurotransmitters in your brain ( the make happy)

    This process you are starting now will be over before week 12, I found peace around day 47

    Stay strong you are almost there!

  • Definitely a little depressed, STILL keep wanting to smoke :(

  • You are doing so well Gazza, I promise this stage will pass for you soon, - keep going, you will be so glad you did and worth it....

  • Yes gazza, it's horrible! I've been there too many times.

    Get the gabba supplements and the higher nature brain nutrients, together you'll feel much better.

    That's what I've done this time.

    Don't let this phase get to you.

    Also, there's no point in fighting it, really there isn't

    . Embrace your quit, this is one of the phases. As Hercu would say, there's no way around, only through.

    If you need a good cry, then cry will do.

    At the end of the day, think of this as you last good bye, of course it's going to hurt, the fags have been your companion all through your life.

    Stay strong and keep looking for the positives.

    Your attitude is remarkably positive from day one, this is just the last push.

    Stay strong.

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