I'm pregnant so I can't smoke and I won't, but I feel very unhappy about it (stopping smoking, not the pregnancy!)
I have read several of your posts on here now and you all seem extremely supportive and optimistic so I apologise for arriving with such glumness and pessimism - bit it's how I'm feeling.
I guess I'm looking to absorb some of your wonderful attitudes towards stopping so that I can feel...proud of myself/determined to stay quit after the baby/that elusive sense of freedom. I feel pretty much the opposite to all this right now and my outlook stinks and is very unlike me!
I am using patches and gum but the psychological claws are in deep...work days are ok but outside...I have shut myself away - I physically can't have a conversation with anybody as while their talking I just keep thinking "I want to smoke" over and over like a sick mantra and so I make excuses and shut the bedroom door/ignore the phone.
I can't believe how selfish I am by resenting this and again, I am sorry for bringing such negativity to a wonderfully positive group.
(ps, I am a CBT therapist so in regards to changing behaviours and behavioural patterns, I support people to do this every day - I REALLY should know better, it's quite ridiculous that I cannot apply it to myself!)