I am such a failure

[nsd_user663_59762]

I have failed - tried to give up, lost my job and the love of my life has left me - smoking more than ever and hating myself for it

[nsd_user663_60964]

Randompeanut

So sorry to hear you're having such a hard time. Sometimes it really does feel like someone out there really doesn't like you doesn't it? No wonder your self esteem is at rock-bottom. You're NOT a failure, just a fallible human being who has had too much to cope with.

Things WILL get better and there will come a point I am certain when the way you feel now will belong in the dim & distant past (and you will have a lovely job and an even lovlier relationship) however impossible it feels now.

When the time is right you'll quit again and this time it will be the Forever Quit I am sure. The main thing is that you're here and you'll get gallons of support from us whenever you feel you need it.

Please accept a virtual hug from me.

[nsd_user663_61728]

This forum is a great support network for those who need it. Sounds like you are going through a really crappy time, I hope that things look up for you soon. In the meantime, I wouldn't feel guilty about smoking, you have had so much stuff thrown at you that even the most steely will would crack. x

[nsd_user663_62343]

I have failed - tried to give up, lost my job and the love of my life has left me - smoking more than ever and hating myself for it

You are no failure, you sound like a lady who is going through a truly terrible time. I think you should try and be kind to yourself and just face one thing at a time. You will achieve what you want to when the time is right